Heart Ache

Heart Ache.


People constantly telling me you're not the same.
But I see all you females as the same despite your names.
I've had my heartbroken before, but you are not to blame.
But instead of removing I'm adding to the bloodstain.
The mark is healing but the impact still remains.
Fought my gut feeling and let you in to my mind frame
I can't help but think my history is repeating itself once again.
Security is one mind set that I find hard to obtain.
But after the last time, I said I would stop and refrain.
I said to myself I would never end up in this same situation again.
Maybe she is right and my past has driven me insane.
Maybe my gut is right and she isn't whom she says she claims.
It's hard to let go and let all that hurt funnel down the drain
No matter how much layers I wear, I still can't escape the rain.
I've experienced pain of which I thought I overcame.
I never said I was proud of the man that I became.
Maybe this all apart of life's cruel game.


I can't seem to stop my mind working overtime.
Constantly accusing every girl of the same crime.
I can see my own blood on every girl's canines.
I'm constantly on guard looking out for the same signs.
My gut warned me but I labelled it as digestion in my intestine.
My nightmares continue to progress throughout the daytime.
Searching to see if you have repeated those same lines.
If I am unable to find that, I search for similar outlines.
Trust is one feeling that can never truly defined.
But fate gave me you, throwing me a lifeline.
Calling me abusive, my past is what you undermine.
I don't want you to end up like those other temporary valentines.
The truth is you add colour and depth to my surreal design.
And that's probably why I cannot get you out of my mind.
A pure, endless love like yours I thought was impossible to find.
That's why I find it hard to accept truly you are all mine.
You healed my wounds; I did not need the assistance of time.


Kela lewis-morin