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I don't want to be this way.

But I can't help but feel this way.

No matter what you do

Or what comforting words you say.

My over active mind will not allow me to believe it.

My weary blood shot eyes will not allow me to see it.

Even though my attentive heart is able to receive it.

My thoughts and my imagination will corrupt and deceive it.

And that's why no matter how much I love you.

For some reason I will always feel cheated.

So please don't blame yourself because you have done more than enough.

You have proven yourself and have provided me with so much love.

There are only so many false accusations you can take.

There are only so many false promises I can make.

There are only so many times I can make that same mistake.

Until I foolishly recognize what is actually at stake.

How long will you have to accommodate my insecurities?

How long will it take for me to completely trust you?

Until you begin questioning my emotional maturity.

There are only so many times I can say "I am sorry but I do love you".

Before the excuses cease to be effective.

Before I realize that it is me who must change my perspective.

Before you realize that you don't have to be subjected

To my distrustful, doubtful and disbelieving conditions.

And that you can find someone else who will love you, trust you and listen.

Then another compatible suitor will be in my position.

It would be my fault because I created my own competition.

I would have to live my life knowing that there is something missing.

The truth is I don't think I could go on living.

Kela Lewis-Morin
They say the best forms of expressions resides in ones self. However on the other hand they say the best forms of writing are when the author detaches him or herself from that particular piece of work. I personally believe it must be a balance, sometimes what makes a piece of work more influential and relative is the fact that the writer was fully engaged with it. This is what I tried to do with this piece in hope that you readers out there can perhaps understand what I am trying to convey. This is based on true experiences and a realization that I myself have recently discovered. I wanted to use rhyme just so that it flows better but at the same time making sense if you get what I mean lol I hope this works and I hope you guys like :) I write for you as well as for me. Let me know what you think.
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e-maginings Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
i like the idea behind this! it's really relatable. i don't know why but every time i read what you write, i hear it as a rap in my head :) it flows very nicely
Dyoniysus Featured By Owner Oct 17, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Loved it! :iconimhappylaplz:
hurrayalex Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2012
I, as a paranoid, like it.
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infinitelove143 Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I love this!

This sounds so much like it could be a nice and clean rap.

Love the rhyming... even the fact the schemes change
TellerFarsight Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2012  Student Writer
Sigh... If I'm not careful, I will be creating my own competition.
KittySib Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Pretty good!:D
TheSpitfireSpirit Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
This sounds like me...
Insomniac-Corpse Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2012  Hobbyist Artist
...*faves* :heart:
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