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Unconscious Epiphany.

I thrive and depend on your compliments

And it is only then as a direct consequence,

Am I truly able to write with confidence.

Even though your words are only temporary.

I deem your contribution as utterly necessary,

In order to refresh my wavering, selective memory.

My own validation depends on your approval.

Whether it is congratulatory or discouragingly brutal.

Your input is the one thing that is most crucial.

Can I call myself a writer if I don't believe in myself?

When I constantly seek approval from everyone else?

How can I then expect to make any sort of wealth?

Of a craft and skill I still think anyone is able to produce.

Is there any point in me putting my apparent talent to use?

When I limit and submit myself into a negative recluse.

I was told I must have self belief in order to achieve,

The dream that I am so desperately trying to receive.

The body can only accomplish what the mind believes.

I know I must rid myself from any form of self doubt.

Proudly show the world exactly what I am about.

Believe the words that converge out of your mouth.

Maybe then I will have some faith in my abilities.

   Maybe then I will be able to strengthen my fragility.

       Maybe then I can see the talent you say exists within me.

            Without relying on you to continuously convince me,

                 That I am capable of writing and making history.

Kela Lewis-Morin
Something I wrote last night whilst trying to sleep and the words just flowed out on to my blackberry lol I guess this is inspired by my own perception of myself and these are the things that constantly float around in my head. There is so much I want to do but there also so many things holding me back. There will come a point where the excuses will no longer be valid and what will I do then? dun dun dunnn lol Anyway I hope you guys like this and I hope it is not too confusing my mind is a mess I admit lol
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deeclear Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
When it comes to the way you feel I am on the "pleasure" cruise with you. Many things holding me back but what will happen when the excuses become obsolete? that is how I definitely feel.
NykiiLynn Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2013  Hobbyist Writer
i agree. you need to lose the doubt. :)your talented. shut up and leave it at that.
skywestphalia Featured By Owner Dec 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Some encouraging words to live by... slowly trying to get my artistic creativity back
heisamazing Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
this poem is amazing. its like you were reading my mail. i have so many struggles like this as well. i know for me, i just want to write to get it out and you pray that it helps someone. You did encourage me btw. Great job!!
Bemari Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012
Well written poem with message in it.
MagicalJoey Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012   Writer
Many authors, including myself, can identify with this feeling. I am constantly wondering if my writing is good enough because I don't get much feedback from DA or anyone I show it too. For me it's doubly hard because I suffer from depression so I need the validation more than most.

But I love the way this is written - the rhyme seems to come naturally.
dwkeiko Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
I liked your structure:3 Nice work
YoshiofRedemption Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Any author could identify with this.
themeepynerd Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Oh, boy, don't I wait for that time...

By the way, I hope you'll believe me when I tell you how amazing this poem is ;)
Lacriyme Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I don't think it's too much of a mess, but sometimes that makes things all the more intriguing. I really like this, and definitely can identify. I'm sure a lot of people can, especially when it comes to writing, where it's so hard to make yourself believe that anything you create is good. If I might share what a friend of mine's told me, since you said this is a reflection of your own thoughts- write for yourself, first. Gaining confidence in your own writing is hard, and I understand that. But the less you worry about what people might think, and subsequently whether or not things are good... That helps.
Sorry, I kind of just went philosophical on you ^^" Anyways, I do really like this, and I hope you keep writing, because even if you don't think it, I think you have talent~
iluvcheeze2much Featured By Owner Dec 14, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Wow, I loved the way it flowed :D Keep it up!
KOIBEAT Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2012  Student General Artist
great finish on this one! as i recall you got really good at concrete poetry so im impressed yet again. i liked your expression of lacking self belief which makes anyone stable, it to me sounded like a poetic love letter from a writer. one thing i usually dont really like in poetry is when the title is repeated in the actual text instead of remaining in the large bold print but thats just a pet peeve of mine. anyways this simple in a universal sounding way and keep it up :)
Phantasm1 Featured By Owner Dec 7, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
Minds are messy that's what makes them so interesting.
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